How should one view Police Officers? My confidence has been shaken at times…

I was thinking about taking up a martial art to empower myself but might not now. I went to the police station in a friendly way and asked to speak with an officer to have an open discussion about martial arts and if it might be a good idea. I was strong and coherent and on my feet with assertiveness which is how they are, assertive. But, this cop recorded me and had his buddies waiting outside for me to take me to the hospital. He wanted to have me committed.

Another time, this really tough, tough wrestler dude who was an All State Champion Wrestler in my school who had a negative view of me, noticed me out of the corner of his eye and pulled me over for an inspection sticker thing. He let me off because I kissed his ass. But then I was walking in the park and he was running on my route coming the other way and ran towards me and whispered, “Where you at?” and ran off after seeing if I would react. Then right after that, he was helping his kid exercise and his kid had a problem with me too and he spoke loudly to his kid, “Don’t worry, that guy isn’t going anywhere” in a negative spoken way. Then, I was pulling out of bagel shop he was going into and there was no stop sign and nobody was around but I didn’t stop and he screamed at me from his car while off duty and he was angry and I just took off and thought, “Fuck Em. I win”…

But cops can be horrible. I have other instances where they wanted my guilt.

I am aware of these people and I am numb now.

I don’t want a toxic girlfriend.

I don’t like cops as much anymore. I used to. I used to think they were the good guys. I will make them my friend if someone harasses me which has happened. But that’s it.